July 29, 2011

July 29, 2011

            Hi Bryan,

I’m sad today.  I had another dream about you last night.  I woke up and felt awful that you weren’t here.  I want you here so much.  We all want you here so much.  I can’t believe it’s been three weeks without you.  This is the worst nightmare I’ve ever been in and I really want it to stop.   I want to see you walk through the door and I’ll ask if my sexy man is home and you’ll say, “I guess so” and blush.

You were too young to leave me.  You were the 5^th child out of 9 so why are you the one who had to leave?  You had so many people here who loved you and we miss you so much.  I want you back; I want to wake up from this horrible nightmare.  At this point, I’m kind of afraid to go to sleep because I wake up feeling drained and sad.  I wake up and remember dreaming about you and talking with you and I want you here so much!  If wishing could make you come back, you would be back with me.

That’s all for now because I’m just too sad to write anymore.

I love you, Karyn